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[Oct. 26th, 2006|08:07 pm]
This Dark World

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[sciencegrl_fred]
[Current Location |Outside New York City]
[Current Mood |anxiousanxious]


Fred could see lights in the distance, glowing against the dark sky and washing out the stars that she had grown used to seeing the last few nights during their journey. They were almost like stars in their own right, providing direction for them, helping them reach their destination.

She glanced over at Angel for a moment, wanting to ask how long he thought it would be before they got into the city before deciding not to and turning to look back out the window. Even though she loved Angel more than anything in the world, part of her was still somewhat unsettled by what he had done. He had done it for her, because he loved her, but still...

She could feel it in the background, the demon inside her - like an ever present voice, a second personality, just waiting to be freed and do all the dark things it wanted to do. When she had woken up after being shot by one of those zombie cops, thinking that she had have died, only to find herself confused and overwhelmed by a hunger she had never felt before, she wanted to hate Angel even as he apologized and tried to explain why he had done it. He had been holding her in his arms on the ground as she bled to death, so soon after they had realized how much they loved each other, and he had turned her to save her. So he wouldn't lose her.

Her handsome man who had come to Pylea to save her from the monsters thanks to Doyle's vision...had turned her into one. He had called Willow to come down and put her soul back in her before she woke up for the first time, so she had never known what was like to have the demon free, speaking with her mouth, acting with her body, but still, she could feel it, poking her, whispering to her. Sometimes, she wondered how Angel was ever able to sleep because that seemed to be when it became the loudest.

She had wanted to hate him and had locked herself away, even as part of her wanted to go to him - he was her Sire, and that connection as well as the love she still felt for him was strong. Stronger than the hate. Finally, she had come out, seeking out the man she loved, her Sire, and she had broken down on him, crying and beating on him.

After which, they had started putting their li--they had begun rebuilding what they had together. It was much more intense, the Sire-Childe bond adding to the bond they already had as lovers.

But even as they found their way back together, things weren't the same with the others. Cordy, Doyle, Gunn, they all looked at Angel differently, wondering what else he might do if he would turn the woman he claimed to love. And as for her, she could see they saw her as different. It started to wear on them, so when Gwen had showed up at the Hyperion with news that there were some very strange things happening New York - things that were out of the ordinary even for the demonic underworld that thrived there - they had decided that it would be good for the two of them to go alone.

So now there they were, driving into New York City. It was beautiful, so different from Los Angeles. There was a...feeling about it that she had never gotten while she had been living in California.

Looking over at Angel again, she reached over and touched his shoulder briefly. "Where are we going to start?" she asked softly. "The area where Gwen said she had been staying while she was here?"
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From: sciencegrlfred
2006-12-15 02:17 am (UTC)
"I..." Fred started to say, looking into his eyes, pausing for a moment as his thumb ran over her lips. "It just came out. The voice inside keeps telling me that I need to ask permission. Sometimes it's hard to ignore it."

But knowing that he still saw her as his Fred, that he loved her because of that, not just because he had sired her helped. She knew she'd slip up from time to time, but she knew that because Angel loved her that he'd help her. He wouldn't hurt her and he wouldn't punish her because he wasn't like that, and she was grateful for that.

Closing her eyes for a moment, she melted in his kiss, cupping her hand to his face. "I love you too," she told him softly when they parted.

Looking over at the bag, she reached over and picked it up, taking out the meat inside. After sliding into her vampire face, she sucked a couple of pieces dry, feeling immediately better as she did, the hunger abating. Once she finished, she wrapped the leftover meat back up and licked her lips a bit - it was still weird in a way to need blood the way she did now, but she was getting used to it.

"Definitely feeling...better now." She couldn't say human since she wasn't that anymore, but at least when she was fed, she could sometimes forget that she wasn't...for a little while. It made it a bit easier. Stretching out slightly, she cuddled up against Angel, resting her hand on his chest and her head in the crook of his shoulder.

"What time do we have to leave to meet with Gwen's friend?" she asked, her eyes falling close.
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